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Matador - 2020

Published: December 25, 2020, 7:12 AM

Merry Christmas Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all

Matador - 2020

Published: December 18, 2020, 11:32 PM

Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       President-elect Joe Biden said last night to Colbert, "My job, I'm not kidding, Stephen. I'm gonna be judged by history whether or not I can make things better for the American people, and I will do - I'll deal with anyone if we're working on, is improving the well-being of the American people. That's not phony - it's real. I swallow hard - and I'll do it."


       I AM hopeful that we, as a Nation, have Biden as our future president with a working plan on hand, and whatever it may be, may God bless him and Vice-President-elect Kamala Harris as they set forth the Will of God to provide His Protection: Water, food, clothing and shoes, education, The Obama Healthcare Plan because God cares for your longsuffering and pain; beds, and roof or tent over the heads of people so that God can finally get the rest that He deserves, knowing that the Biden-Harris Administration will do to the best of its ability to save lives from premature death.


Reference

Hoskinson, J. (Director). (2020, December 17). The Late Night With Stephen Colbert. (S6 Ep26, Joe Biden; Jill Biden; Jon Batiste). [Television series episode].

Matador - 2020

Published: December 11, 2020, 5:29 PM

Updated: December 11, 2020, 5:34 PM


Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       Congratulations to  President-elect Joseph R. Biden, Jr. and Vice-President-elect Kamala D. Harris - Time Magazine 2020 Person[s] of the Year! 


       Regarding (TX) Sen. Ted Cruz and the numerous lawsuits to try and overturn Biden-Harris' win: They could use Cruz's and others' words to help educate Georgian voters to understand what is at stake if Republicans regain control of the US Senate. We should all want a peaceful transition, and yet, some Republicans have lost their minds.


       I AM taking a break today. Goodnight!

Matador - 2020

Published December 4, 2020, 11:59 PM

Updated December 5, 2020, 12:45 AM


Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       As you read this post, I hope that all is well within your household. Let's switch up the order of things a little. As you all know, I have been reading two books: A Promised Land by Barack Obama and The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love That Lasts by Gary Chapman. I realized something: Although I read Chapman's book years ago, I was unable to get Leonard to read it back then, and so, I decided that I would use the book on myself because I learned from the other side (2007 & 2011 and onward) that I AM able to create (recreate) my own Peace. 


       At first, I thought that I would use Obama's and Chapman's book to help me understand Leonard, but their life journey is theirs, not Leonard's, and I cannot force someone to read a book if he/she does not want to. But, I can do a switcheroo and put a twist on learning in my favor. I realized something - as time went by, so did my needs in life: Quality Time. Some years ago, I would make a list of things that I wanted to do with Leonard - the kinds of stuff that I liked, but he always lost each list. 


       Although Chapman wrote about quality time as in spending time together, doing things that the other likes, that was the case for me with those lists, but for some time (here's the switcheroo), quality time is spending my time alone for my Peace of mind, doing things that I prefer to do on my own. I can be alone when I want to, go at my own pace, not talk to anyone, do what I want, go where I want, wear what I want, not asking if the other is ok with what is yet to come during my quality time, and so on. In recent times, Leonard declared Mondays as his day for himself - no household stuff and no lawn cutting on this day.


       As for affirmation - I have paid attention to praising and encouraging him and being kind. Well, I AM kind. But, yesterday, he tried to blame me when he broke a piece of the entertainment center he brought home. I offered to help with the last two parts since I heard him say that the trailer would pop up when he would move them. Since I AM a whole lot of woman, I offered to stand on the trailer's bow - "No," was his answer, so I went inside the house. Moments later, he came into the house and said that I should have stayed outside because the piece broke, and I said, "You should have come inside to get me." He tried to blame me again and said, "You know that when I start something, I do not want to stop," and I repeated what I said, "You should have come inside to get me." After that, we went on and had a great dinner and evening. 


       Wednesday, was quality time - Andrew helped us moved out old and then moved in furniture: We gave me our furnishings. Later in the day, Leonard and I painted two walls, and then I went to Home Goods to get two lamps, throw pillows, and a table runner - gifts from me to Leonard - he likes goodies. 


       Regarding Obama's book: After I read page 45 about the "Magic beans in your pocket," Michelle said to Barack after discussing money from a book and expenses that he would incur. I got out of the master bed and walked to my room on the other side of the house. I opened a box where I kept my seeds, dropped 13 Purple Hull-Peas into my left hand, and then went into the kitchen, grabbed a saucer, placed a napkin on it, put the peas on it, and used bottled water to moisten my peas. At first, I thought about putting them into my pocket, but, would be better off watching them grow. "Magic beans, baby. Magic beans" (Obama, 2020, pg. 54).


       On page 78, can you imagine what life would have been like if Barack Obama had not entered into politics and later became president?  He wrote, "I had made a bet a long time ago, and this was the point of reckoning I was about to step over some invisible line, one that would inexorably change my life, in ways I couldn't yet imagine and in ways I might not like. But to stop now, to turn back now, to lose my nerve now - that was unacceptable. I had to see how this whole thing played out" (2020). So true; he had to see where his "Road Map" would lead him (pg. 66).


       Regarding Vice-President-elect Kamala Harris: This morning, I dreamt that she had her right hand and arm across my lower back, while I had my left doing the same against hers. We walked for a moment talking, and she said to me, "I did not know. I did not know, Fern." She had on a fitted pink capri pants, a white long sleeve top with pink accents, and white and pink sneakers. Her hair was down and flowing with the wind. She was pleasantly friendly, as though we have known each other for years. 


       Before signing off, I hoped that President-Elect Joe Biden's foot is doing well. I guess Donald Trump was correct about Biden's future limp. Goodnight! Have a wonderful weekend, as I will, too.


Reference

Chapman, G. (2015). The 5 Love Languages The Secret to Love That Lasts. Northfield Publishing: Chicago, IL.


Obama, B. (2020). A Promised Land. Crown: New York, NY.


Matador - 2020

November 27, 2020

Posted at 11:57 PM

Updated last: Nov. 28, 12:15 AM


Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       As you read this letter, I hope that all is well within your household as it is mine. Yesterday, Chat, and I spent the early portion of our morning to celebrate Thanksgiving with Mumsy. We followed the facility's rules: Must wear two masks and no physical contact with Mumsy. They wheeled her into the sitting area outside of her unit. She looked and is well. She was so happy to see us - and during our time, I called one of her sisters (the one similar to me) and Lora Ann and held up the phone for Mumsy. I will not take chances with Mumsy's and my health - the experts said, 3 to 8 days, some say 2 to 10 days, and Leonard's last contact with a friend from Seattle and his nephew from Atlanta while in Georgia was about 3 AM last week Monday. Still, I wore two KN95, a 3-layered cotton mask, a face shield, and gloves.


       Oh, I have a COVID-19 question. Is there a possibility that those who recovered from COVID-19 and tested negative could still shed the virus the same way that men who recovered from Ebola still had the virus in their semen and told to wear condoms or abstain from sex for awhile? I asked because the family member who was sick and tested negative twice stated a co-worker returned to work and was so excited to see her.  The enthusiastic person jumped on and hugged my family member three times, which caught her off guard. That same week, her supervisor returned after being off for a month and is off from work again because the person has COVID-19. The co-worker, who was also out for a month, stated that she had recovered from COVID-19. My family member believes she got sick (still negative) from a co-worker, but she did not feel well shortly after her eyelash appointment. She started feeling unwell six days after the co-worker's hugs.


       This past Wednesday morning, I said to Leonard, "I AM sorry, please forgive me when..." It had to do with the previous day when I got upset with a male notary and Leonard. But when Leonard started to critique me, I said to him, "The day you allow me to critique (criticize) you; then you do not have the right to critique (criticize) me." It was as though a light bulb went off within him because for a quick moment, his eyes twinkled. I wanted his forgiveness, and when he realized this, he asked me to forgive him, which I angrily did and meant it. He did forgive, too. After that, we had a great day; he also made an appointment to go to the DMV to transfer the car into my name, and when he saw me looking at the license plates, he suggested that I get the U.S. Army, which I did because it was the best looking!


       On November 16, I changed my nutrition - higher carbohydrates (five to six servings and homemade dessert), about 8oz meat, three servings of fruits, and three vegetables. I switched from whole grains to white (enriched - no more stomach issues). Less fat and no more whole milk and yogurt because the trouble with swallowing had returned. Then it was as though my body awoke - moving once again and started losing weight. My body stopped experiencing shocks that I have felt from time to time since about 2008. I wasn't eating enough calories and would overeat later in the day, and now I get between 1664 - 1767 calories, but I may need a little more calories since I started exercising again. 


       Just to let you know, I will let go of The Matador Account on December 31, 2021, because I realized that I did think about it for some time, and usually, the first choice was and is the right choice. It will hurt me more than it will you, and I will not Ghost you on January 1, 2024. I will always consider each of you as A Friend - my eyes and nose are burning just thinking about what is yet to come. Since January 2020, I did not let on that I AM unable to see your locations because I upgraded my Website, but I know that y'all visit from time-to-time. I did not want y'all to worry if you thought that I would have felt alone - I do not. When the connections happen, I do understand - I may miss some, but I do enjoy it when I get them. Earlier this year, when one of you did what you did, I know that I needed it because I had not written in some time. 


       During the beginning of the CIA posts, I had too many visitors, but nowhere close to when y'all clicked 300 times overnight a few years ago. The person who handles my computer had noticed that I texted him a few times on Tuesdays about my laptop. Strange things would happen on some Tuesdays and Wednesdays: The screen, as I typed, would quickly scroll up and down, making it impossible to type and post on time, too. There are still things that I need to go back and add. What I wanted to write in their section, but will come along slowly in January 2021 and thereon somewhere else on the Website, things the Ghostwriters left behind and stories that I can finally share that for some reason, something unseen would stop me.


       Since it is the holiday - holiday weekend, I will not keep you here too long. 


       Regarding Obama's book: Instead of looking up the words, I wrote them down, including notes and phrases to look up later on because it would take too much time away from enjoying the flow of reading his book. His openness had me roaring with laughter and brought back memories: Page 12, he wrote of himself, to himself, "You need to lighten up, Barack. You need to get laid." It is a good thing that he and I had never met because I was very generous in that department - way back when. On the last page of the first chapter, he wrote, "...the most important decision ahead would end up having nothing to do with law." I said to myself, "It has to do with Michelle," and after I turned the page to chapter 2, I tossed my head back in laughter after I read, "Michelle LaVaughn Robinson" (pg. 20). And yet, a softer side of Barack to admit, "A sensitivity to rejection or looking stupid," he wrote (pg. 13). Obama's book, along with Gary Chapman's, I believe, from a man's point of view, will also help me understand Leonard and his, my, and our issues.


Goodnight!


Reference

Obama, B. (2020). A Promised Land. Crown: New York.


Matador - 2020

November 26, 2020

Happy Thanksgiving


Matador - 2020

November 20, 2020

Posted: 10:50 PM

Updated Last: 10:55 PM


Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       Do you all remember 2008, when then-President George Bush invited Sen. John McCain and Sen. Barack Obama to the White House so that whoever won the election would hit the ground running on January 20, 2009? Think of the Trump-Pence Administration as a passenger jet in a nose-dive, and then on January 20, 2021, after Biden-Harris take hold of and pull up their yoke, their tail wing will hit the ground skiing: Don't Think - Pull up. My advice would be to forgive Donald Trump, so he does not mentally affect their wellbeing and judgment. In 2016, I had already forgiven him - one of the reasons I sleep well at night and go on about my day.


       Matador, last week I did not write what came from memories that I shared with you all. I referred to Biden as Moses and as The Energizer during his and Obama's second term because I believed he would run for president, but this was before Beau Biden's death. And something about when this Fat Lady sings and not in a blue moon. 


       Last night, my sleepy eyes did not finish watching Jonathan Capehart's MSNBC Special Report on Barack Obama. Capehart asked Obama if he watched the George Floyd video, "Yes," he responded. The question brought back a memory - as soon as I heard of George Floyd's death, I watched the video, and when his movement began, I asked God to send George Floyd a message: Thank you for your sacrifice. 


       Regarding the 2020 Presidential election, no one movement, person, organization, social media, broadcast station, gender, or race was the sole cause for President-Elect Joe Biden, Jr. and Vice-President-Elect Kamala Harris' victory. It was a team effort among the people. I must add, though, it was interesting that Twitter got involved in flagging misinformation, especially Donald Trump's account, including other mediums and news organizations. During 2016, it did not make sense when I saw on YouTube two men disparaging Sec. of State Hillary R. Clinton and then learned that people did this on purpose to spread lies so that more US Americans do not vote for her. 


       Matador, I have something to write about wearing a mask. I wear a mask to protect myself and my lungs first, not to protect others from me when I AM not sick. Think of flight attendants: They want you to place an oxygen mask on yourself first to save your life before helping others next to you. Gardeners wear masks to protect their lungs' health first from the soil, not to protect the soil's health from them. Nail technicians do not wear masks to protect the health of acrylic dust first from them. They wear masks to protect their health first: No health, no wealth to survive. 


       When I wore an N95 mask to the election office on March 17, 2020, the people behind me without masks quickly parted to each side of me as though I walked through the Red Sea. At CVS, a Caucasian man without a mask saw me and turned around to walk in another direction. In August, when a Caucasian male that Leonard knew walked towards our truck, I had on a mask and said he doesn't have a mask on. Before he reached my window, I rolled it up. He was within a few inches from me. It stressed me out so badly that I turned to Leonard, spoke about the man, and shouted, "Wear a fucking mask!" When stressed, I tend to cuss. I AM pretty sure that he heard me because his wife went into the house and then came outside with a mask on her. I wear a mask to protect my Trinity first: God, His Real Son, and my Holy Spirit (my Soul) - more on this later. 


       Last week Monday, I found out that a blood relative, who goes to the casino, hangs out with others, and does not like to stay home, has COVID-19, and I asked about the mask she wears: Someone made it for her, and I told her the report was to wear a three-layered surgical mask. She's feeling better since this Tuesday. This Monday, a blood relative tested negative for COVID-19, but she's been sick since last week: Taste, red eye, eye drainage, nose burns, lower backache, and sleeping about 12 hours, and she will retest. She works, orders food out from restaurants, her roommate's family does not wear masks when they visit, and she had her eyelashes done (both wore masks). A few hours after leaving the eyelash appointment, she started showing symptoms, but it may or not be a fluke since the technician stated that her daughter had a sore throat.


       Last Thursday, I wore gloves, cotton balls in my ears, two medical masks, a double-layered cloth mask, and a face shield during my mammography and left breast ultrasound. When I got home, two small dried fluids with rings were on the outside of my face shield in the middle, and on my right, the shield's left - a medium to large dried liquid with rings that looked gross. When I remove my face shield, I lay the outer face down, so I do not accidentally touch it while driving or on the car floor in the same position. If I had not worn a face shield and eyeglasses, something could have entered my eyes. Then I sanitized each side four times - sure did and let it sit wet for 10 minutes or more each time: Twice with a homemade sanitizing solution and twice with Virex II 256. I showered, cleansed my face and ears, and shampooed my Afro! 


       This week, on Tuesday, after Leonard returned home from Georgia, I wore a mask in the house and during sleep because although he wore a mask to the stores, he did not wear it while in the RV with others since they believed that leaving the doors and windows opened was enough to protect them. Each day, after Leonard left the house, I opened the front and back doors and master bedroom window to air out the house, sprayed it down, and when I believed it was safe, I removed my mask until he came home. I even turned off the fans (except the bedroom) and AC unit so air slowly moves about the house. No sex, not even a kiss and hug. No sex because I AM waiting on getting Testosterone pellets again. Yesterday, with a mask on, I finally hugged him before he left. At night in bed, I place a barrier pillow between us so that he does not directly breathe on me. I know, it can still float. Yes, I could sleep in my own room.


       Last evening, I stopped wearing a mask around Leonard, but this evening, I put it back on because he said the crackers tasted rancid. Yesterday, I bought ten boxes of crackers (we are cracker snackers). He asked me to taste them, and they were fine. First thought, oh, no! He said that he was not sick when I inquired. Moments before then, he threw out an opened box of crackers, and yes, I pulled the box out from the trash can to taste, and texture (taste) was not good because, after opening, one of us did not seal the box in a storage bag. Then I said that I bought two different types: Original and Everything. Maybe the Everything has an ingredient that he does not like: Picky tongue eater, but I bought it before.


       Over the weekend, I will relax with my books, and I hope you got a copy of Barack Obama's book: A Promised Land, Volume 1. Tomorrow, I need to buy an updated Merriam-Webster Dictionary, out of stock online. 


       Before turning in for my late-night happy hour, if I had the chance to speak with President-Elect Joe Biden, I would wish him a Happy 78th Birthday and say to enjoy his nightly ice cream with his homemade cake.


Goodnight!

Matador - 2020

November 13, 2020

Posted: 11:59 PM

Last Updated: Nov. 14, 2020 at 3:26 AM 


Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


       Well, you all must have been thrilled on 11/7 for President-Elect Joseph R. Biden, Jr. and Vice-President-Elect Kamala D. Harris. After the announcement, I posted on Twitter but then deleted it since it was not as worthy as my [possible] final post. I wanted to make sure to Tweet God's Beau & Arrow, @BarackObama's Great Hope, and @NIH Dr. Anthony Fauci's 2020 @MLB curveball flattened the current @POTUS. Their 273+ finally hit me on 11/8 at 3:30 PM when a quick puff of air escaped through my lips, and then I burst into tears - it was soothing to have the emotions.


       Last week Wednesday, a pinch before 3:25 AM, Leonard woke me because I asked him to so that I could make him a fried egg sandwich before he hits the road for Georgia. Deer Hunting with his longtime friend from Washington State - the same one we visited back in 2012, and his longtime US Army friend from S. Carolina who moved from Maryland (Magic Mirrors). Leonard said that the election was not over yet, which I knew since it would take time to count the ballots. Leonard said before he left that he wanted Biden-Harris to win Georgia. 


       As you all did too, with Nevada, Arizona, Alaska, N. Carolina, Pennsylvania, and Georgia left uncounted on Thursday, the 5th. I played around with the numbers as I spoke over the phone with Leonard, and I said that if Biden [Harris] gets Nevada, Arizona, and Alaska - he wins with 273, and without Alaska, he still wins at 270. Although they were down in Georgia and Pennsylvania, I said to Leonard 273, no less than 270 and no higher than 306 - no kidding. We were texting back and forth - kept him aware of what was going on: 6:34 PM - Biden (49.3%) is 9,426 points away from Trump (49.5%) for Georgia; 7:25 PM - 3,486; 9:24 PM - 2,497. At 9:26 PM, I mixed up Pennsylvania's 20 and Georgia's 16 Electoral votes and texted - If Biden gets Georgia, it's 273; 9:39 PM 1,902 lead. 


       Earlier Thursday, the 5th, it did not make sense that Biden-Harris were losing Pennsylvania badly - my thoughts - Biden has to win his home state. Later I found out that Philadelphia stopped counting (court thingy), but when they restarted, Holy Smackaroonie and Lord God have Mercy! Friday, the next day at 8:51 AM - I texted, Pennsylvania - Biden now leads by 5,587 - over Trump! His response at 8:55 AM - Cool. At 9:34 AM - Biden is leading in: Georgia, Pennsylvania, Nevada, and Arizona! Then 10:04 AM - PA - 6,737, Biden's lead; 11:17 AM - PA - 9,027 - Biden's lead; 12:55 PM - PA - 12,390 - Biden's lead; and 1:25 PM - PA - 13,371 - Biden's lead. Then he texted at 2:03 PM - Hey babe is President Trump winning Georgia [-] how about NO. At 2:43 PM, my reply, Uh, uh - No Way. Uncalled races & difference: Biden: PA (20) - 13,662; GA (16) - 1,553; AZ (11) - 41,302; NV (6) - 20,137. Trump: NC (15) - 76,737; AK (3) - 51,382. At 6:40 PM - PA - Biden's lead - 14,541; 8:38 PM - US Supreme Court declines to stop ballot counting in PA; 10:06 PM - PA 27,130 Biden's lead. 


       During our 6:44 PM phone call on Friday, the 6th, I said that Donald would go golfing after Biden-Harris wins. Leonard said, "No," because you need to concentrate while golfing, but I still believed that he would because when upset, it is best to beat a ball (things as I did) than to beat up on a person (with my head bowed down - which I also did, too). The next day, I got tired of hearing Joe Scarborough's complaints, DVR to tape just in case of an announcement, and then I watched a movie. At 11:54 AM, I checked, and Pennsylvania led Biden-Harris to limp across the line at 273! Think about it: 270 was the line, and yet, Donald said about Biden, "I think he'll limp across the line" (Jackson, 2019) ... to win. Leonard was surprised that Donald went golfing - no surprise to me. In regards to Donald, it is best to walk away from him than to beat down on a man who knows that he is "definitely" a one-term president! 


       In regards to the Biden, Jr. Written Works - (CA) Sen. Kamala D. Harris dropped out from her 2020 Presidential campaign, and through the people,   God Fired! Donald J. Trump, Sr. Although (KY) Sen. Mitch McConnell holds his scythe - God, Shoeless Joe Jackson, and their Black Betsy are still batting 1.000 (on my behalf) since it is not over until this Fat Lady sings on January 3, 2021. Think of McConnell, Senate GOP, and Senate Majority Leader title as a trio of players. Now think of the trio as injured players on the opposing team when MLB Tommy McCraw hit a pop-up ball on May 17, 1971 (Wikipedia). 1. McConnell not sworn in yet. 2. Still waiting on Georgia's run-off election to see who has the majority: Democrats or Republicans. 3. If sworn in and GOP has control of the senate, they may vote someone else in as Senate Majority Leader, instead of McConnell.  


       On Wednesday, the 11th, as I looked at my ring, I visualized a vintage design and sketched it - absolutely beautiful. It will have white and black diamonds, grey sapphires or diamonds, citrines, spinels, and topazes. Instead of 13 stones on top, the ring will have 27 stones above and swirls.


       Today, I pre-ordered A Promised Land by Barack Obama - something to read during fall through winter. I repurchased Gary Chapman's Five Love Languages - I read it years ago, and I hope that what it did for me back then will restart how I would want to feel, again emotionally just enough not to cloud my mind - must remain focused. Oh, yes, I need to buy an updated dictionary and thesaurus since Obama uses words that I do not understand.


       From this Friday on, until Friday, December 31, 2021, it is all about my time left with you, and then I will retire The Matador Account. But, would you all be interested in being ghosted every four years from 2020 - until I AM mentally unable [to remember, death, or ready to let go]? Two weeks ago, while on the road to visit Mumsy, the thought of retirement caused me to cry - wondering if I was making a mistake since we put in so much time through the years. Return on January 1, 2024 - until after the election - I already set my phone. Besides your entries, it is time to lay down what I believe to be true - on God and His Real Son's behalf, I want to pay the ransom. Yes, I AM aware that it could lead to my premature death.


       Goodnight, and may each of you enjoy the weekend. 


Reference

Jackson, D. (2019). 'Trump says he's 'the least racist person' in the world, sees Joe Biden as Democratic debate favorite.' USAToday. 30 July. Retrieved from https://amp.usatoday.com/amp/1858853001?_twitter_impression=true&s=09 


Wikipedia contributors. (2020, July 30). Tommy McCraw. In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. Retrieved 07:51, November 14, 2020, from https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Tommy_McCraw&oldid=970325401

Matador - 2020

October 31, 2020 - 2 of 2

Hello Matador, Sunshine Eyes, and Y'all,


        Happy Halloween! Since earlier this year, I waited patiently for the Blue Moon - Hunter's Moon! At 9 PM - it was raining and cloudy outside. I will wait until late this evening in the hope of seeing it. 


       This past Thursday, I was in South Florida, again, visiting Mumsy and updating her voter registration info since her handwriting has changed. Earlier morning, I was in Fort Pierce to retrieve a second ballot envelope, and I explained that my mother's hand slipped while signing her name while holding a [Word Find] magazine, and I was concerned because her signature had changed, too. She asked if I had the form to update my Mother's voter registration, "Yes," and off I drove to South Florida.


       As I stood outside the facility's window, I watched Mumsy sign four times, and the mistake I made was to tear up her old envelope and replaced it legally with the new envelope with her name on it from the election office. When the woman from the recreation department brought the four forms outside to me to see, all were signed differently - Oh, no! I told the woman to tell my Mother to sign her new ballot envelope neatly, which I heard her say, and it too was signed differently. 


       In hindsight, although she slipped while signing the first ballot envelope, I should have compared it first with the four forms, but I had already torn the envelope, and yet, the first two signatures on the documents were slightly similar to the slipped up one. The facility only scheduled me in for fifteen minutes (2 PM - 2:15 PM), and by then, Mumsy said that she was ready to go back to her room. Then shortly after that, I drove home, but since the election office was opened, I continued onto Ft. Pierce. 


       At the desk, I spoke again with the same woman who helped me that morning; she called an official from the back to help me with Mumsy's documents. From there, two legible forms were compared to Mumsy's old signature on file and selected one from the two. After that, the official left, then the woman came around from her desk, and we walked to the receptionist for her to stamp Mumsy's envelope, and I dropped it into the black lockbox that looked like a suitcase. 


       After I arrived home, I had to go to the bathroom, and once again, as I stood up from the toilet, on my mind, I did not date the updated voter registration form. I quickly pulled up my undies and pants, flushed the toilet, washed my hands, left the bathroom, and then looked at the other form with the empty box next to the signature line. I grabbed my pocketbook, slipped on my sneakers, and out the door with my keys in hand. I was so focused on Mumsy's signature that I forgot the date. 


       After I arrived at the election office, I pulled on the door, and the alarm went off; it was closed, but wait, it had to be open, so I pulled on the door again, and the receptionist came around to let me in. The same woman was still at her desk, and I said to her that I did not date the form, and she thought I said the ballot envelope, but no, the form. She got up and went to a side office, while another female staff rolled her eyes. The woman came out and said that it was already scanned and still gave me the form, and sure enough, no date on it. I filled in the date and asked if it will be rescanned, and she said, "Yes," and out the door I went. 


       Mumsy and I did the best that we could - she voted, and we'll have to wait until next week to see if her vote counted, too. Funny thing: When Chat and I visited Mumsy last Saturday, she kept saying, "I want to vote for Biden and Kamala." To get her answer for the next question, I had to hold up her ballot against the window that I circled Biden and Kamala's name. Her ballot was waiting for me at the facility, and then someone from the recreation department handed it to me to assist my Mother. The facility scheduled me in for one hour, much needed, too. 


       Today was a busy day moving things around and cleaning up the dining room area, and light shopping because Leonard wanted to make an alcoholic beverage with fruit puree - hmmm so good and candy for the little ones just in case they do come tonight. After dinner, Leonard came in from the patio and said, "Your man is on. Obama is on." My question, "Which channel," and he said, "CNN." As Mumsy would say, "Hmmm, hmmm, hmmm!" Heck, I AM with you, Mum, Mum, I know the feeling when I see Obama, too. 


       During President Barack Obama's speech in Detroit, Michigan, I had to go back outside to retrieve the bags of candies because it was raining. Then I walked back inside and saw that Obama's mic was not working, he smiled through it, and his lips looked as though he said, keep honking the (your) horns. I was looking around for the sign language person - nowhere in sight. Just before Obama introduced Vice-President Joe Biden, I looked down, and there was Ranger 1 standing on his hind legs with his front paws on the coffee table, while quickly licking the cream cheese icing that I had scooped off from my carrot cake. He stopped licking the plate just before Biden made it to Obama's side. Oh, what a sight! Since the Six Million Dollar Man's taken, how about the Seven Million Dollar Biden-Man, running on stage. At last, both of them together. 


       Earlier this afternoon, I saw that I last posted on Oct. 7, 2020. The Black Fly that Senator Kamala Harris saw on Vice-President Mike Pence's white hair on Oct. 7th was priceless! I tried to get a fly swatter, but they sold out. On Oct. 13th, I forgot to post that Obama's set to publish "A Promised Land" on November 17, a book about him and his time while in office. Is it a coincidence or a stroke of luck that he would name his book, according to Moses? His book is on time.


       As I watched Vice-President Joe Biden the last few weeks, something has changed in him - his demeanor changed (improved over time), and saw for the first time last Sunday, someone presidential. He's got the look! 


       I read Deadline's article - Joe Biden Slams Netflix & Amazon On Taxes, Again. I liked the article because it reminded me of Obama when he went after Wall Street and yet graciously accepted funds. Goldsmith wrote, "It can't go unnoticed that many people in Hollywood, including those at the Ted Sarandos co-run streamer and the Jeff Bezos juggernaut, are big supporters of the Biden-Harris ticket and the Democratic Party overall - which may be a sign that Biden wants to show he's not afraid to call out friends as well as enemies" (Oct. 30, 2020). The article was as though it was a boxing match when Goldsmith cited Netflix and Amazon's response to Biden's comments (Tweets). 


       Now I know that I have soaked one too many times in my sudsy soapbox - know that, yes, I acknowledge that I AM unpleasant at times, but I hope no matter what I write (say) that after it is all written (said) and done, that we are still friends from a distance. It reminded me of Susan Rice when she stated (paraphrased) that after Biden and she had verbally gone at each other, they were alright after their meetings - must have been a lot of cussing, too.


        Well, I look forward to Vice-President Joe Biden's final speech before or on election day. Enjoy the moment is what I would say to him. But, first, do not let the polls fool the people. Biden and Harris still need to encourage folks to get out and vote by ignoring the polls. Vote as if Biden and Harris are behind to get them into office. Get to the election hubs early, bring chairs, water, snacks, sweaters (blankets) to stay warm, rain jackets (umbrellas) to remain dry, activities to keep busy, and if the people need to wear Depend®, do so, so they stay in line! Goodnight!


Published: Oct. 31, 2020 at 11:59 PM

Updated Last: Nov. 1, 2020 at 12:51 AM


Reference

Goldsmith, J. (2020, 30, October). 'Joe Biden Slams Netflix & Amazon On Taxes, Again.' Deadline.com

https://deadline.com/2020/10/joe-biden-slams-netflix-amazon-taxes-again-1234606880/ 

Matador - 2020

October 31, 2020 - 1 of 2

You know that strange things have happened to me on Halloween. The day I went to Walmart to get baked beans, among other things on Halloween a few years ago (I do not recall one or two cans). Do you remember the canned baked beans that flew off from the shelf on its own while I stood alone in that aisle? The baked beans were only on my mind; who else would have known that I wanted them. You know the answer.


Well, this morning, I woke from a dream about HRH Rachel, Duchess of Sussex, and a Hawaiian female classmate (HFC) from cosmetology school. In the dream, Rachel and HFC were longtime friends, and the three of us were in a golf cart: HFC driver, Rachel front passenger with me in the rear with my back facing theirs. We were on HFC's family property, acres of land - lushes greenery and trees. The three of us were there to help HFC's family round up the dogs to bathe them, clean out the dog litter box (yes, that is a thing), and then sleepover. Oh, that's right, Ranger 1 was in a metal basket upfront of the golf cart. 


Although Rachel knew everyone there, HFC introduced me to her mother, family, and guests playing cards outside the front screened-in lanai (patio). Then three of us went inside to clean out the dogs' litter box. In hand, Rachel had a 6-inch to 8-inch wide sifting grid scooper while I had an ice pick. I picked at the litter, and she scooped the small pebbles to large chunks of dog poo for disposal. Then for some reason, the dog litter box turned into a large upright icebox. I picked at the ice and helped her remove large frozen fishes with big eyes looking back at us. 


After HFC and her mother, Rachel, and I bathed all the dogs, we went outside to take a joy ride through the property with the dogs in hot pursuit, too. But then, I see Ranger 1 hiding under two dogs in the golf cart metal basket. He jumped out and took off, followed by all the dogs, but the largest one of the group with grey/white/black hair down to the ground caught Ranger 1 by the back of his neck but wiggled out from her mouth. She got him again and carried over to me to get a bath, too. 


Since it was getting late and tired from the day's work, the four of us decided to head in for the night - watching TV as one by one showered and readied for the night. Rachel, in bed first that could hold several people. In her hand was a plate with one three-layer unique honey-looking dessert with sweet cream between two cookies and a cup of beverage. I was in a rocking chair next to a window (my right) with boxes stacked behind me, and the bed that Rachel was in was up against the boxes (Rachel's right while watching TV). Then HFC's mother got into bed next to Rachel and quickly fell asleep on her belly as Rachel, and I watched TV while HFC was in the bath. 


HFC took a long time in the bath, so I got up, walked out of the bedroom, and then knocked on the bathroom door, the first on the right - no answer. Slowly, I opened the door and saw HFC floating on her back, asleep in the tub. Her skin also floated down into the water, revealing her rib bones. After I got her out of the tub, I went back to the bedroom. Then I moved the rocking chair to the other side of the room near the door - with space on either side of the chair. HFC fell asleep next to her mother while Rachel and I continued watching TV. 


Sometime during the night, with the TV still on, I woke up, and to my left, Rachel tried to sneak by me, and in her hand was a plate with a cup of beverage with two three-layer unique honey-looking desserts with sweet cream each between two cookies of their own. As she passed by to get back into bed, in my dream: The first cookie - eating for one and the two cookies eating for two, and then I woke to wonder whether HRH Rachel, Duchess of Sussex, is pregnant? Who knows, only time will tell. Then I got out of bed to begin my day.


Published: Oct. 31, 2020 at 1:15 PM

Matador - 2020

October 7, 2020

       Much needed mental break. Last week was something else. After midnight as I drifted off to sleep on September 28, 2020, Joseph and The Killer Whale were on my mind. At 10:13 PM, I tweeted: Joseph & The Killer Whale: Think of Donald as a Killer Whale who plays w/ his prey. He'll work to overwhelm thoughts in the hope you'll rush your answers, to stop from thinking first before speaking. When stuck on thoughts don't toss up hands, stay calm, don't give up. @JoeBiden


At first, in the beginning, I was disappointed with Chris Wallace, but then something dinged my mind, and I understood what was going on during the first 2020 Presidential Debate. I sat back and enjoyed the show as Wallace kept interrupting Donald, drowning out his attempts to get at Biden. Although the mole[s] (friendly pets) in the White House leak information, it is a rumor. The way Donald behaved on stage had to happen to help undecided voters see who he is for themselves. Three times I said aloud, "Tell Donald to shut the F up!" Leonard said, "Tell him to shut up." Biden, the gentleman he is, said it the way that was comfortable for him to do. Leonard said they needed a mute button for the next debates, and others later stated the same thing. 


Donald, Donald, Donald, what was he thinking? He and (KY) Senator Mitch McConnell have their own rules and do what they want to do. They should have waited until after US Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg's burial to announce a nominee. I guess COVID-19 infested parties are a real thing. When the news broke about Hope Hicks, Melania, and Donald tested positive, I said to Leonard, Chris Christie is in trouble, and sure enough, he too tested COVID-19 positive. I AM so grateful at this time that Biden, Dr. Jill, family, and Team are well. 


A president's work does not stop unless he is unable to, which the vice-president takes over. Campaigning does not stop; therefore, the debate show must go on. Biden should debate with or without Donald. The last two from their homes or decide the setup for his protection, too. If Donald cannot debate, let him forfeit, or is still sick, the voters will know that his COVID-19 situation is not under control. Donald may want to be on stage with Biden, okay. The same on game shows with money blown around for contestants to grab. Seal Donald inside a closed plexiglass container with a vacuum tube overhead leading up through the roof, an oxygen tank below blowing air, as For The Love of Money (O'Jays, 1974) plays.


As I browsed the Biden and Harris goodie store, I saw the #46 baseball cap and wondered if anything happens to Donald, then Pence would be #46. As I said about Obama and Biden that I would stop worrying about them during their second term, I will not worry about Donald's COVID-19 situation. Donald reminds me of people who want to be the voice of something (a cause, or for others), but as I watched him Monday night, gasp for air after a walk up a flight of stairs, he may not be a voice for anything, if not careful. I hope the US Secret Service well, including all the White House staff and occupants.


Amy McGrath's ad featuring a Trump supporter, hmmm, if you think about it, a US Senator from Kentucky must represent all state residents regardless of which president they vote for in 2020. The same as the President of the United States represents all US citizens. The right to vote is a right. Who people vote for is still their choice (right). 


Well, tonight is the vice-presidential debate. If I could be an itsy bitsy bug in Kamala Harris' left ear, I would say: 

  1. Think of the debate as being in a fighter jet, holding a control stick. 
  2. When Pence is within the grid, stay in balance with him first, the same as the balance scales, and do not let it rip (fire), not just yet. 
  3. Due to his laid back manner, KNEAD him pinch by pinch, as though the control stick is a cow's udder to the point he becomes weary, knowing that the woman in front of him is about to let it roll (rip).
  4. Watch the posture from above the breasts, shoulders, and neck; finger-pointing, head and neck shift, and shoulder toss. 
  5. Stay calm and enjoy the moment.


Posted: October 7, 2020, 2:55 AM 

Last Updated: October 7, 2020, 3:25 AM


Reference

Gamble, K., Huff, L., & Jackson, A. (1974). For The Love of Money [The O'Jays]. Ship Ahoy. Philadelphia, Pennsylvania: Philadelphia International.


Wikipedia contributors. (2020, August 11). For the Love of Money. In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. Retrieved 06:01, October 7, 2020, from https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=For_the_Love_of_Money&oldid=972404382

MATADOR - 2020

When you look at me, who do you see?

September 16, 2020, 1:33 AM

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MATADOR - 2020

September 11, 2020

We Will Never Forget

September 11, 2001

MATADOR - 2020

August 26, 2020

        The next morning after last week's post about transition, I woke from a dream. Why transition back when you should move forward? It does make sense. Since 2011, this was about learning the lessons from the Ghostwriters. Others say baggage, but my past is my life experiences, and although I had retired from before 2011, they helped me figure things out since then, especially for The DOA. 


You know, I thought that I was judgmental with the sugar coating, but then I remembered what someone texted, "I care about you and love you very much. I have respect for you and appreciate when you are straightforward with me" (April 14, 2020). Although I AM a good person, some people dislike my fiery nature. Think of me as a well-used fireball cannon: Something dropped into the tube, someone yells, "Fire in the hole," and wherever the fire lands, it lands, and most times, I do take responsibility, while other times, I take the hit. 


There is still more to the story. On August 11, 2020, I asked Leonard to come into my private room to look at my painting. And said, "What does this look like?" He did not know, and I said that it was a blue drape with 13 stars (above the Dog's head). What also happened on the 13th, after the announcement on the 11th: On my mind, a tablecloth pulled twice. On the first pull, the dishes remained, and then the second, the plates, cups, and utensils fell to the floor. Then on my mind, the rug pulled from under me, and I did not fall, but the second caused me to fall onto my butt. The blue drape with the 13 stars helped me understand that the veil (thrill) that I felt for Obama and Biden, Jr. had to be removed so I could concentrate while writing. When in the honeymoon phase of living, some people think differently, and since the veil's removal, my mind is in focus to write. 


Last Wednesday, Leonard returned from Georgia. The next morning, during the 3 o'clock hour, I woke and found him sleeping on the sofa. He thought that I did not want him sleeping in bed with me since I said he was in isolation, but I said that I could sleep in my private room and wanted him to go to bed because he had been on the road. I stayed up, and then after 5 AM, I thought about Leonard and how much he loves me, and then Aaaah, Ah Aaah, Ah Aaah, I'm Hooked On A Feeling (James, 1968) played on my mind, and after watching it on Youtube, I saw and played, Come And Get Your Love (Vegas, 1974).


Later in the evening, as I sat on the sofa eating homemade chicken and vegetable curry, Leonard said, "Obama will be on tonight. Your man will be on tonight," I changed my mind and taped it and the next day. Although I did not plan to watch the following evening, I cringed after Biden, Jr. said light and darkness, and immediately, I went to bed because Darkness represents God, but depicted as evil. Monday night, Leonard had on the RNC. I briefly watched Jr. and Sr. and went to bed. After the RNC, I will write about thoughts and the DNC to explain.   


Last Saturday, while in bed before sex, we talked for a long time (stories, health, future, us). He said, "All that matters is that I love you, and you love me." I unenthusiastically said, "Yeah." He asked, "Do you not love me anymore?" I said, "I do love you, but the thrill is gone since May 2014." He did not remember what happened, and I did not bring up what he said to me because I forgave him, and I do not want us to be slaves to the hurtful past. After sex, I said it had been years since we spoke at length like this, which made me feel good about us and our future, again.


P.S. On August 5, 2020, at 11:16-18 AM, a breather called and left a voicemail. The person either tried to get me off or to scare me, but it did not work. Probably tried to imitate Michael Jackson's Thriller (1982). Then, with a whisper, it left a message. Due to my hearing, I was unable to make out. I forgave since it is best to step aside and allow God and His real Son to correct. I think about Exodus 20:2, "I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery" (NIV). I believe when people (I) refuse to forgive, they (I) mentally, become someone's slave.  


Posted 2:50 AM


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Davidhertzberg1. (2010, May 7). B. J. Thomas: Hooked on a Feeling, (James, 1968) - Lyrics. [Youtube channel]. Retrieved August 26, 2020, from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wqt_iZBvtCo


Jackson, M. (1982). Thriller. On Thriller [Record]. Los Angeles, California: Epic. 


James, M. (1968). Hooked On A Feeling [B.J. Thomas]. On On My Way [Record] Memphis, TN: Sceptor. 


Shane Combs. (2009, July 18). Redbone - Come And Get Your Love - Live 1974 (Guardians of The Galaxy). [Youtube channel]. Retrieved August 26, 2020, from https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dj0drevGOgA


Vegas, L. (1974). Come and Get Your Love [Redbone]. On Wovoka [Record]. Los Angeles, CA: Epic Records.


Wikipedia contributors. (2020, August 14). Hooked on a Feeling. In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. Retrieved 00:21, August 26, 2020, from https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Hooked_on_a_Feeling&oldid=972825888


Wikipedia contributors. (2020, August 25). Come and Get Your Love. In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. Retrieved 00:55, August 26, 2020, from https://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Come_and_Get_Your_Love&oldid=974793709

MATADOR - 2020

August 16, 2020

       In the hope of a solution, I asked God for help that it would come through CIA, and then on August 14, 2020, at 11:04 AM, its Tweet was in agreement with what was on my mind about my mistake and the media. 


       First, congratulations on the Biden-Harris 2020 campaign. Second, may they receive what they asked. Third, I hope they enjoy the moment as people root for them. Fourth, give the Democratic nominee Joseph R. Biden, Jr. the celebration that he deserves, make it big, and send him back fully satisfied.


       Few things happened since Tuesday's televised announcement: When it came, I said to Leonard, "The media," and then switched from MSNBC to the Jazz channel. He saw the shock on my face and asked if I wanted him to get wine to calm my nerves, and I said, "No," because wine for nerves is for February when ghosts come in droves. But he bought two bottles anyway, and I enjoyed two glasses and three sips with homemade pizza as we watched two Yellowstone (Linson, Sheridan, Costner, Glasser, 2020) on DVR: No, Rachel Maddow. He also said that at one point, "You were cheering for Kamala." Tuesday's announcement reminded me of what I wrote online: Mitt Romney and Paul Ryan have no idea what is coming after them. I wrote it months before Romney would pick Ryan.


       Early the next morning, Leonard drove alone to Georgia to get ready for the upcoming deer hunting season. He called to check on me during his drive and said, "You need to trust your gut." He noted that Kamala is going to rip into Mike Pence and get Donald Trump at the same time. After discovering my choice for Susan Rice, he asked about her debating skills, and my reply was that she could learn. While on the road, Leonard got his answer about Kamala's debating abilities. Although I dislike how Harris came at Biden, Jr., with her busing fiasco, Leonard made clear that there are people who make their voting decisions based on how someone debates, and then I remembered what I wrote about Kamala: "Torn ass moment." Soon, after each debate, Pence and Trump will need a rectal medical-grade gauze. Kamala should review Tim Kaine's 2016 debates, especially since people believed he over-rehearsed. Biden needs to make sure that Trump does not shadow him from behind as he did Clinton.  


       By Wednesday, I was laughing again. Since Tuesday's announcement, I have not watched and read any news. Before then, no one has any idea the hours I had spent reading articles and tweets about Biden and Harris. Since Thursday, I believe it was when I unfollowed Biden on Twitter. Not because of what I had written. But due to "no exclusions" that I wrote on April 25, 2019, under Biden, that released my mind. 


       ...right to vote thru the mail..., everyone is entitled to live in the same Peace as others..., no exclusions... If a candidate does or does not overstep the rules, let us see how far she or he and voters will go, which will let us know the U.S. America we will live in from Jan. 20, 2021 - 2025. Whom will voters choose? My desire that each candidate enjoys her or his campaigning in the U.S., the U.S. Territories, and throughout the World, and knows she or he is a winner due to the choice of running for U.S. President in 2020. Hindsight is 2020: Stay safe, including the U.S. Secret Service. On Your Mark, Get Set, Ready. Go!


       Before April 25, 2019, when Kamala Harris announced her campaign on January 21, 2019, I knew it was not her due to MLK, Jr.'s date because not everyone would have felt included. In April 2019, I knew it was to play as a video game to see how far I would get, but had forgotten, and did not know I was the target until dodge ball flashed on my mind on Thursday. In fourth grade, I was good at, and I still remember one game when I was the last and then for all those balls targeted my ass. On Thursday, while cooking, I cried (without sound) because The Thrill Is Gone played on my mind (Darnell, Hawkins, 1969).  


       The Biden-Harris assessment: 'Inclusive - no exclusions.' What ended the game on Thursday was when I realized the 'First' 30330 texts did not come in on Tuesday. No Twitter notification from the Biden camp on Wednesday, especially since I had been receiving them before he live-streamed on Tuesday. Two Biden-Harris email announcements referred to me as folks, not Fern. It may seem that I AM nitpicking but think. When building a campaign (family, business, church, cult as such), you want everybody within and outside the group to feel included, even when disagreements happen. The leader must figure out personalities, needs, and desires for them to feel welcomed or; their minds will realize they are no longer inclusive. The excitement I had for Biden (Obama) was gone; it is why I cried on Thursday because I knew the thrill would never return, same as the May 2014 incident that ended a 12-year honeymoon phase with Leonard. Biden-Harris need to figure out how they can make their campaign inclusive for others because I no longer desire to be a part, but I still will vote for them.


       In regards to the unknown initiation, we learned about her skills. What has the Biden-Harris campaign learned? Think back to Sen. John McCain's mistakes, and then I believed Mitt Romney had someone on his team to ensure he did not make McCain's mistakes, but then the 47% happened. In 2016, I did not know Trump was refurbishing a hotel in Washington, D.C., and one of the campaign songs was "You Can't Always Get What You Want" (Jagger, Richards, 1968). The Clinton-Kaine mistakes were exclusions, and not transparent, deplorable comment, no visits to some states, election day polls (possibly some voters thought Clinton would have enough and did not vote), emails, and interference. Although I started thinking about 2024, 2020 is a rematch, a chance to get the job done by avoiding the same mistakes. 


       In regards to the Harris and Biden, Jr. written works, I deleted the background stories because the narratives no longer mattered, but know that there was more to the story. As Kamala officiated the wedding of Kris Perry and Sandy Stier, a same-sex couple, is when I liked Harris (Taylor, 2013). I had never heard of her until President Barack Obama referred to Kamala as the "best looking attorney general" (April 2013). In the first paragraph, after asked to research Kamala, I refused to list her past because we all made mistakes. While briefly watching Biden's interview after the first debate, I then listed Harris' mistakes. Goldilocks (Southey, 1837), Kamala to stay in her lane, was about the "Just right" position not to steer off the path. Ms. Emily Post flashed on my mind back to when I lived in Waimanalo, Hawai'i. My mother had a handmade Hawaiian Grandfather clock. The flash pointed to the nook's right side (our left): Only Post's and thesaurus (synonyms and antonym) books sat there. Etiquette was a big [F] deal in our household. Fern and Wilbur (White, 1952) were in reference when Alfred Hitchcock was on my mind.  


       The hidden messages within the Biden, Jr. written works: The 2020 Presidential election is about who can uphold the U.S. Constitution. Cross over the aisle to speak with hateful individuals and hate groups in the U.S. and help U.S. citizens to understand their equal rights under the U.S. Constitution that others want to withhold from them are protected. Allegedly, Donald desires to resume hatred and the civil rights dogs of the past in the hope of his own [revengeful] revolt as Hitler did (Webb, 2019). While writing, Biden's piece was also about his celebration party. In 2018-19, I knew we needed Biden's experience to correct Trump's mistakes and had no idea that in 2020, the United States would be in the situation that the elected-leaders should have learned from our past. 


       As low-down dirty dogs do, we also continue mistreating each other due to the differences in who we see.  One of the problems if Biden-Harris win back the White House is who they can trust. Who is behind the mind of the person providing law enforcement (military) protection? Due to some form of mental control (fear), lack of knowledge (of the laws), and manipulation, law enforcement (military) should have questioned (challenged) Trump's thinking before he unleashed his cruelty through our federal employees against protesters, media, and priest[s]. 


       One of the written pieces that I learned about from Jesus: Water, food, and sleep. Before his death, Jesus had already left behind his forgiveness. He knew that after the soldiers (people) had something to drink, eat, and had a good night's sleep, their guilt would then realize what they had done to him. I hope that Biden-Harris keep the White House well stocked (doggie biscuits, too) so that before engagement with staff, congress, diplomats, and guests are content and then able to think freely for themselves as they conduct business. Because with a hungry gut and or low blood sugar, who knows what else is on their minds when anger sets in to play its role.  


       Think way back, when I wrote "God brought me out from retirement," from the kind of person that I was to figure things out and help you to see things from a different point of view, and also I shared how I used to role-play with people to help them get the answers. Then I came back out again on January 1, 2019. Matador, are you up for one more challenge? The final writing before the election. If so, the title is: When You Look at Me, Who Do You See? Write your list and then later compare it to mine to see if we think alike. It is a fastball to strike out old thinking, and then I will begin to transition as close as I can to the person I had worked so hard to become. I may not fully get back there, but it is worth a try. 


Posted: August 16, 2020, 10:39 AM

Last Updated: October 6, 2020, 9:51 PM


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MATADOR - 2020

August 11, 2020

       During the 9 AM hour, I knew it was Kamala Harris because, according to NBC News, Karine Jean-Pierre would be the running mate's chief of staff (Memoli, Golden, 2020). Since then, I walked around the house and sat in my private room painting with "You Can't Always Get What You Want" played on my mind, and yet, the need is to fix the mistakes that Donald made during his term. During MSNBC's announcement, Leonard said to me, “It will be alright” after telling him that I had already known. Then I deleted who I was following on Twitter to make room for what I wanted to read until November 3: Biden, Obama, CIA, and Obama Foundation, but since then, I deleted Obama and his foundation because he put sugar on Harris' truth. I did not sugarcoat my reality when I told God all the mistakes I could remember that I had done and then for Him (others) to fill in the rest. If Biden sprinkles those sugary sparkles, I will unfollow him, too. 


       Although, I did not want Obama, later, I grew fond of him. The same can happen for Harris. If true, that Kamala Harris said, "That's politics." Ditto is my reply, and just in case, make sure that those well-trained SS dogs are well-fed before her White House visits.


Posted 10:40 PM


Reference

Jagger, M., Richards, R. (1968). "You Can't Always Get What You Want" [(Rolling Stones)]. Let It Bleed [7-inch single]. Olympic, London: Decca Records; United States: London Recordings.


Memoli, M., Golden, A., NBC News. (2020, August 11). Biden campaign puts VP team in place ahead of announcement. Retrieved from https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/2020-election/biden-campaign-puts-vp-team-place-ahead-announcement-n1236359 


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MATADOR - 2020

August 5, 2020

       Although I wrote that I would not give my advice, from the start of this Website, ya'll are grandfather-in. Therefore, I will write only for ya'll what I think. It looks as though Vice-President Joseph R. Biden, Jr. has his hands full with his 2020 VP selection. Last week, I had no clue what happened. Still, something did not seem right, which had me rethink my position on who I would want as his VP. Sometime last year or earlier this year, I shared that if a woman becomes the nominee, she should pick a woman as her VP. If Biden, he should choose a woman, and if he could not find someone that I would approve of (vote for), that he should take Kamala Harris. Then after so I could learn more about who could Biden choose as his running mate, I wrote a list of women to work from (a binder full of women - I could not help myself). 


       It bothered me when VP and Dr. Biden mentioned Michelle Obama's name - I felt uncomfortable and knew I needed to calm down. After someone asked Michelle if she would run for office, she said, "No." When someone says no, it is no because then I wonder if he/she has a problem when told no. I thought about Pete Buttigieg when he talked about name recognition during a debate. Also, Michelle wrote that she would never forgive Trump. Would she expect God to forgive her when she needed it most to save her Peace of mind? I need to have forgiving leaders. Did Dodd say Kamala, "had no remorse" (Moreno, The Hill, 2020) for remarks made at Biden during the June 27, 2019, live debate? Is Harris remorseful for her conduct when she was San Francisco's district attorney? Does she have empathy for inmates due to about 1000 drug-related cases she incarcerated, and then reluctantly released? If she laughed and said 'that's politics,' how will she react during a VP debate against Mike Pence? 


       On March 11, 2020, on my mind, the first shall be last, and the last shall be first, from which I thought about Biden's Tweet from last year, the story about women's rights and voting rights that shocked me. The list I put together was for non-white women, who could be of African, Asian, and or Hispanic descent. Later, no governors and mayors currently in office since I believe it would be abandonment due to the Novel Coronavirus. At that time, I was looking for a woman with the same drive as Kamala's, but yesterday morning, I realized each woman should be of the strength that she already owns. 


       On August 3, the word loyal came to me, and I started typing. At 3:16 AM, I sent a Tweet. ".@JoeBiden: Choose a woman who will be loyal to you. When a campaign starts w/ gripes, leaks, & distractions, the Administration will be overrun by backstabbing & media hungry moles. Who is God's loyal challenger to test tryout His 7A Drumsticks to beat down #TheWallofTrumpicho?" During my sleep, I kept waking up and thinking about who this loyal woman is. Neither [CA] Sen. Kamala Harris nor [CA] Rep. Karen Bass should be Biden’s chosen vice president. 


       In regards to Kamala's statement during the Black Girls Lead 2020 conference, she said, "There will be a resistance to your ambition. There will be people who say to you, 'You are out of your lane...' "They are burdened by only having the capacity to see what has always been instead of what can be. But don't let that burden you... I want you to be ambitious" (Moreno, The Hill, 2020). In regards to California Rep. Karen Bass, I was unaware that former Sen. Chris Dodd referred to her as "a loyal No. 2" (Korecki, Cadelago, Caputo, Politico, 2020). Bass is in the same boat as Harris. During a syndicated radio show, "The Breakfast Club," Bass said, "Why are you comparing me with her?... Why don't you compare Whitmer with Warren" (Moreno, The Hill, 2020)? 


       When selecting a lifetime marital partner (VP), you want someone who is the same or close to being the same as you, someone who will be loyal to come to you first with complaints instead of adding fuel to the family gossip rumor mill (media). If you pick someone who was disloyal to you before marriage (vetting process), it will (may) continue until you die, or the partner dies before you do (leave office). Although I do not have the facts of what happened during the vetting process, I believe Harris and Bass failed a mysterious test that opened my eyes. In hindsight, Harris should have realized after the "too ambitious" statement reported by CNBC could also be seen to test her loyalty on how she would respond or whether she would not. She took the bait and hooked herself, not because of her comments, but because she took a whack when it did not go her way, while Bass complained about being compared to Harris.


       On July 5, I did not think first what my Tweet would imply about Amb. Susan Rice, when I got caught up with women being @NSYNC to beat @JoeBiden's drum. No woman should have to be at the same pace as other women; she can go at her speed unless a part of a musical group, but will the woman be loyal or selfishly get even when things do not go her way. One evening while in my cheerleading uniform during a football game, the band teacher asked me to play the drums, not knowing that I could not read music, just learned by listening while in band class at Lahainaluna High School. He did not realize it was my favorite cheerleading song but played too slow for my liking. Think of Snoop Dogg and Pharrell's "Drop It Like It's Hot" (2004), played at the speed of Michael Jackson’s "Thriller" (1982). It was selfish of me to beat the song so fast that the teacher's hands moved swiftly, which meant the band had to keep in sync with him, as the cheerleaders danced their asses off to stay in the rhythm that I had set to move them too fast. 


       The right woman will challenge Biden as they face whoever (whatever) comes their way. Amb. Susan Rice, I believe, is loyal. She would complement Biden, they are the same, they worked together during the Obama-Biden Administration, and she can learn the vice president position within the first 100 days while on the job since it is Biden's responsibility to have the experience to run the Nation. It does not matter that she never ran for office. In regards to 2012, we all made mistakes. Rice's mistakes are nowhere near what the Trump-Pence Administration has done to the United States and the World. Leonard had already made his decision for former Ambassador Susan Rice, and I did not let on that she was my top pick before the Tweet, and still is as of yesterday. If made VP, Rice will support Biden and defend God, The US Constitution, and Nation.


Posted 7:39 AM - Edited 4:30 PM


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Matador - 2020

July 31, 2020

Hello, Matador's Sunshine Eyes and Ya'll:

       It is my hope as you read this brief note that all is well within your household. Tonight makes it nine years done, and one more year to go plus five months since I wrote some time ago that I would retire The Matador Account on December 31, 2021. This morning I woke from a dream: Boure-Ferry, and after researching online, Bourne, MA popped up. Maybe one day I will take a trip and see what is there. This past Monday, I finally have the at-home art studio that I wanted, my own private space with a sleeper chair, library, three work stations, easel, roller cart, and later a shelf and rehook the TV. I just wanted to check in for a moment. We are well and safe for the time being. Mumsy is doing well, too. Take care. 


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