March 14, 2020
Happy 141st Birthday Mentor Albert Einstein
For some time, I have written and rewritten your section, wondering when I will close out your piece so that I can move onto The CIA's chapter because so much is going on in the USA and the World. I AM ready to park my thoughts, but not until I finish yours. God, Israel, Einstein, and the others on the other side, please help me to close this out and release me from the mental and physical strain knowing the writings are for the closed-minded, set in their ways, and do not understand what is going on in this Living Hell.
March 30, 2020
After a good night’s sleep, I awoke on the 15th: You’re not writing for the closed-minded. Stop writing like a reporter. No need to add everyone [thing]. Write each piece separately, but connect them through a link [to create the full story] - greedy on the breast.
When I write for the correct audience, the open-minded, there is no mental and physical strain, just full enjoyment because writing is a lot of fun, especially knowing that the people behind the Matador Account enjoys them, too. I totally forgot that I asked God to help me find like-minded people and help people to see Him as a loving God. The closed-minded people are the Walking Dead – living in their guilty conscience, while the opened-minded people are the Walking Living – living free from their guilty conscience.
Later the same day, I remembered the letter from Physicist Albert Einstein to his son, Hans Albert, (Nov. 4, 1915. Einstein wrote, “That is the way to learn the most, that when you are doing something with such enjoyment that you don’t notice that the time passes. I am sometimes so wrapped up in my work that I forget about the noon meal…” (Nobel Prize, Twitter, Nov. 4, 2019, Brainpickings, 2013). There are times when I forget about food.
June 9, 2020 (rough draft)
On August 4, 2011, I was admitted into the psychiatric ward and within the first few days, I read what I wrote from the other side because a female psychiatrist said that when I go back to read what I wrote that it wouldn’t make sense; meaning gibberish. Most writings were written during the night, while I was in bed on my stomach. The only light coming into the darkness of the room came from under the closed room door, diagonally to the left of my right foot; a nightlight from across the foot of my bed; and hardly any light through the closed window blinds to my far left, since a female patient was closest to them. As I wrote while on my belly in bed, I was unable to see what I was writing, I just wrote the words down. Among the writings I saw E = mc2, which I have seen before, but never taught in mathematics class and never wrote before. Prior to 2016, an unseen wanted me to paint an interchangeable puzzle piece. In March of 2016, the month before Prince Rogers Nelson’s death, I took a piece of sketch paper and tore it evenly in half and continued doing so until I had two pieces the size that I wanted, instead of trusting the unseen by using two new 24x48in canvasses. It wanted me to draw a piece from my painting called ‘My Eyes are Here’ [see under About Us (Me) – My Work] and then scribbled here and there as I turned each pieces of paper until I started to see who appeared. It was the 1921 Nobel Prize winner in Physics, Albert Einstein and I was happy to see him. After finishing, I placed both pieces into a plastic bag along with the portions of blank papers.
In January 2018, while browsing Etsy.com, I saw an unusual white pearl gold ring with 16 or more teardrops at the base, which looked like a rocket was about to take off from the bottom of the ring. As the ring stayed on my mind, I continued looking and found a jewelry maker in India, who had a teardrop base (hearts) that I could use to make a 12 teardrop pendant. The idea was to create something that would soothe me through orange, purple, green, black, white, and grey; and to create my own 12-color coded wheel, which I found out on Feb. 8, 2018 that Aaron's breastplate has 12 color stones. In 2011 or so, I wrote that we all share the same God. But how? The idea of the pendant is about the people on [or were on] my mind and who I met along my journey in life; people of different religious and non-religious beliefs; and [Hawaiian] legends of the past taught to me. The pendant could be worn in my hair, as a brooch, necklace, and on the backside of my hand as women in India do. The idea of the pendant represents Love, Hate, and Peace; Forgiveness and Peace; Love and Hate; Good and Bad; Darkness and Light; and how to stay in between the two.
On May 25, 1979, I was 13 years old when Father Albert Leunens died on American Airlines Flight 191. Heartbroken, I was, over his death, the others on the flight, and the two on the ground because until May of 2011, I believed that I killed them since Father Albert had blessed our house and property about one and one half weeks prior to their deaths. My sister, Lora Ann, and I spoke to Father Albert, while Father Mark was on vacation. We told him that our Mother’s bed would shake, her room was much colder than the rest of the house, and things would disappear, move to different locations, and/or return. Soon thereafter, Father Albert showed up unannounced, dressed in a fancy cream robe holding his Scepter, and I think he had on a fancy headdress. After he finished blessing the house and property, I asked him to bless me. After my mother got upset with me, Father Albert used his [left] arm and closed hand to block her away from me. He looked at me and then sprinkled the Holy Water from his Scepter over my head. He asked me a question, where? and after I showed him my legs, he sprinkled the Holy Water from his Scepter that I believed would remove the scars from my legs that I did not like and have since disappeared.
A few days before Feb. 15, 2018, Krishna was put on my mind. I used Google to research the Name, my eyes widened because I recognized the colors: Red, Yellow, and Blue, and at this moment, I AM unable to remember the exact image in the Palm of His left Hand, but I think it was an up and down yellow symbol. I read the story of Him and Hinduism, and noticed the month in celebration of Krishna is late August or early September. In 2016, I bought a purple Spinel, love the color purple, and later I found out that it was added to the list of birthstones for the month of August. In January 2017, it was set in a yellow gold ring with tiny diamonds and two side diamonds. Later day on Feb. 15, 2018, I Googled Hare Krishna to see when this faith started – July 13, 1966. In 1969, when I was three years old, my father, sister, and I were on our way to an outdoor music concert at Diamond Head Crater in Honolulu, Hawai’i on the Island of O’ahu. [Keep in mind that it also could have been 1970]. He said to me not to take anything from anyone. As my father and I walked up the mountain with my sister in his arms, a male Hare Krishna was dancing down the mountain when he saw me: There was something about the way that he looked at me. He stopped in front of me and presented a small orange flower. I looked up at my father, he nodded his head up and down for yes and then I took the orange flower, thanked him, and off he went as he continued dancing down the mountain.
During the early morning on Feb. 15, 2018, I sat straight up in bed because something came to me as I slept: Only use one chain and two claws, showed me how to wear the piece of jewelry on the back of my right hand and wrist, and taught me how to weave the chain through the pendant and around my middle finger, hand, and wrist. For many years, I have wanted a beautiful wrist bracelet from India that links it to my middle finger. When I chose the online Etsy jewelry maker because of the base of her ring that I had admired, I did not know at first that she was from India. God has many Names and we all serve the same God – One God of All.
For some reason on Feb. 12, 2018, I wrote E = mc2 on a piece of unlined paper and since Einstein was/is good with numbers, I asked God, Israel, the others on the other side, and Einstein to help me figure out what is going on with the unfinished pendant since I was unable to. The only thing that I understood is that E is equal to mc2 and after looking it up, E as in Energy and M as in Mass: E = M x C x C. “Energy and mass are both but different manifestations of the same thing” (Einstein, 1905). “On the most basic level, the equation says that energy and mass (matter) are interchangeable; they are two different forms of the same thing. Under the right conditions, energy can become mass, and vice versa” (NOVA, n.d). On the same date, I dedicated the pendant to Mr. Albert Einstein since on my mind was: What is going on to the right of the = sign is the same calculation to its left, and then I wrote, “It is a 191 pendant – In Remembrance of All…” The next day at 8:11 A.M., I wrote, “Thank you everyone, God, Israel & AA Flight 191 & 2 [on the] ground” with another 191 in a circle because I cracked another code in the center of the pendant to confirm yes, American Airlines Flight 191. In honor of them, the pendant, will have seventy-three stones, 96 beads, 12 teardrops, 2 circles, 4 loops, and 4 chains = 191. The pendant is a symbol of remembrance of, “All, In All, and All through All of God's United Nations” (July/August 2011). At some point during the layout of the unmade pendant, I saw images and researched non and religious symbols that lined up within the stones of the pendant: Crescent Moon, Star of David (obvious), Yin and Yang (obvious), Peace sign, the Cross, Buddhist, Hindu, Wicca, Jain, Shinto, Sikh, Swastika, and Bahai.
Since April 2012, I tried to figure out how to explain the relationship between God and Satan since I realized who they are to each other, which caused my blood pressure to rise while on the way to see my female gynecologist and it was high at her office. So I borrowed Mr. Einstein’s E = mc2 to write another point of view to explain how they are related, but first. While at Texas Woman’s University, one of my male criminal justice professors enjoyed a paper that I wrote about rehabilitation from prison but there was one problem with my paper. He said that the paper would have been better if I had references (sources) to make my paper credible because I wrote it from an idea of what I thought should be. This stayed on my mind for reasons unknown until I read Dr. William G. Kaelin, Jr’s piece in The Boston Globe; a credible source since he is one of three men who won the 2019 Nobel Prize in Medicine. Kaelin said, “The real magic happened when the two lines of investigation collided. Things dramatically accelerated in 1999 when we realized we were studying the yin and yang of the same mechanism” (Sweeney, Freyer, 2019). Einstein’s two different forms and different manifestations and Kaelin’s yin and yang are the same as each other of the same thing (same mechanism): Two different forms equal to each other. The same as Deutsche Welle – “Two sides of the same wall” (DW.com). This Website promotes understanding.
Life is a mathematical equation. Since everything belongs to God, a way for our knowledge to use E = mc2 of understanding, to help us bypass our self-doubt to get to God’s Wisdom is that, God is the Energy, “which is the entirety of one side of the equation, and represents the total energy of the [universal] system” (Siegel, 2018), while Satan is the Mass, “which is related to energy by a conversion factor. And c2, which is the speed of light squared: the right factor we need to make mass and energy equivalent” (2018). To simplify E = mc2: God and Satan both exhibit different qualities from each other, and yet, they are both formed from the creation of the same thing [Life], which is of God and from Him. God had accidentally created Hate first [Satan], instead of Love first [Humankind]. Although God and Satan are two different forms - opposite from each other, they are still equal [related] to each other because both of God’s Love and Satan’s Hate have the same Energy to kill in Mass form that humans and leaders do not understand. Under the right conditions, people kill in the name of love to end others’ and their own pain and suffering, and they do the same thing in the name of hate due to the differences in who they see in each other and themselves. God’s Love and Satan’s Hate are two different forms equal to each other, which means, “they are two different forms of the same thing (same mechanism)” (NOVA; Einstein, 1905; Kaelin, 2019) because both Love and Hate can mislead humans into doing the same thing as each other and to each other.
Sometime ago, I wrote a formula < = > to represent Hate is lesser than, while Love is greater than: Hate is equal to Love is; Hate < = > Love; Satan < = > God; A < = > O (The Alpha and The Omega); Hate < Peace > Love; Yang < = > Yin; and Satan’s Hate [Yang, Light] < = > God’s Love [Yin, Darkness]. Although Hate is lesser than Love, and Love is greater than Hate, both are equal to each other through [the barrier of] Peace [knowing that they have the same strength of the other] which stands between them. No Peace between God and Satan, No Peace [of mind] for humans and leaders due to the differences in who they see in each other and themselves. No matter the choice humans make in life when they realize that they created hate first instead of love, God will still send them His Peace after they asked for His Forgiveness to sustain their Peace of mind. They must believe that God forgave them, to help them realize that God’s Peace [of Mind] is strong enough to stop them from killing others and themselves.
Cause and Effect
Find (Siegel, 2018)
Sweeney, E., Freyer, F. J., The Boston Globe. (2019, Oct. 7). Harvard doctor among trio of scientists jointly awarded Nobel Prize in Medicine. Retrieved from https://www.bostonglobe.com/metro/2019/10/07/harvard-doctor-among-trio-awarded-nobel-prize-in-medicine/x4Rk8BHxyzXTurnQkdwTv5N/story.html?outputType=amp&_twitter_impression=true
NOVA (date unknown). Einstein’s Big Idea. Retrieved from https://ww.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/einstein/Irk-hand-me-emc2expl.html
Einstein, A.,“mass & energy are both but different manifestation of the same thing.” http://youtu.be/P7WGqBZnCPM